她: 去睡觉

就算心里不能做到,至少表面功夫要做足.(尽量)

不能露出马脚,要紧密扎实地收起.(努力中)

要撑着,但不要有开花结果的想法.(没问题)

以那立场来对待她,而不是以这立场来想念她.(很难)

要习惯性地选择逃避,而不是以明显地暗示来让她反感.(做不到)

千万别真心地聊天,要自然而不在乎的感觉来回复. (其实她也没在乎)

注: 她看似敷衍的答应让作者不知该不该约多一次.

阿拉

我: 要吃宵夜吗?

Dear you,

I was wrong, I know that you want to treat me as good friend but you scare that it will give me fake hopes. I had tried to think in your position and I realized that I'm a selfish guy. I keep saying that we're best friend but I was telling lies, to you and me myself. I really understand what you want to tell me when I gave you the present last night, you know that I'm not treat you as a good friend. All I did was just thinking of myself, I thought that I have to treat you well because of I like you. But indeed, I had ignored your feeling and everything, I feel good when I treat you well but not in position of a good friend, that's how selfish I am.
I told you that I will think about future on today. I kind of like we few peoples hang out and talk something deep. So, hey I'll treat you as good friend, no worries it's true. I know, this is good for me and you. I'm not forcing myself to stop loving you, but in this moment, I'm glad that I have a good friend like you. I'll respect you, protect you, and love you my friend.

Me

此刻暂时不能当你是 普通朋友

答应过的事我真的做不到.

心里那一关真的过不到.

可以自私吗?

还是 让我彻底地死了心?

我完全不能描述现在心情,只能以麻痹来暂时代替.

丰富的想象力让我感到恐慌,过多的可能性令我心寒.

真的欺骗不了自己,已经不能自拔了.

今晚,请容许我痛苦一下,好发泄心中的空白.

注: 作者许诺自己不再有下一篇这种黑色文章.

阿拉

她: 别对我这么好

我才了解我多自私.

我才明白我多不对.

虽然当天是我生日.

阿拉

她谎报 四十公斤

现在,心情恢复了.

这一刻,我才了解,

至少你还单身 : )

阿拉

我常一直还在很想她.

豆花卖完了

那短暂的时刻很美妙,感觉就像很多话说不完. 也好像一对似的.

奈何有些一发不可收拾,时刻都想对着电话按发送.

忍耐,绝不可让这自然的感觉不见。

好怀念那一刻,短短几秒也好.

阿拉